So, yesterday just dragged on... It was annoying...
But I went back home around 8:00 and Nick wasn't too happy with me that I was gone for so long. So, we got in a little hissy for a little bit and then I just sat on the balcony and thought about things.
I realize that I'm just thinking things through WAY too much. I'm turning stuff into things they shouldn't be and I need to stop doing that. So, I finally told him I was sorry and that I'm gonna try to be a better person and he said he's gonna try not to be so mad all the time. So, for the time being we are doing good!!! LoL.
Gawd, I didn't get to bed till, like, 3 in the morning last night. I woke up at 7:00. I had some fucked up dreams last night. I can't even explain it, it was so weird. But it kept me up practically the whole 4 hours. So, in all reality I basically got, maybe, 2 and a half hours of sleep. Could be from the 3 Excedrin I took and the amount of smoking I did... Hmm... But that's ok. I should be able to sleep tonight.
So, today I HAVE to get this paper work taken care off. I keep putting it off and putting it off. Gawd, I'm such a fucking baby.
Tomorrow Nick and I are gonna go see "Devils Rejects." I'm so excited. Hehe.
Oh, and I woke up this morning... Sat in the living room with Nick... Thought to myself... "I need smokes." Nick looked at the 2 packs I had laying on the table to only find 2 CIGARETTES!!! I couldn't believe it. I didn't realize I smoked so damn much last night. It's crazy. I haven't smoked that much since I started. Sheesh. So, I took our change jar and cashed it. Got about $10 and bought 2 packs for myself. LoL. I was very relieved. I did that first thing this morning!!! LoL. It was critical. LoL. I was scared I would have to wait for Nick to get home with his paycheck to buy me smokes. LoL. And there's no fucking way I'm gonna last on 2 cigarettes over a 9 hour period of time. No way, man!!! Gawd, I need to quit...
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